My hot fiance...

in his new hat! :)


Megan Smith and I rescued the cutest kitten tonight. Megan's hoping to acquire a golden cat someday for that effort. We'll see.

Doing hair for Tom and Lori's wedding in the morning! WOOHOO!!!

Also, my dress came in the mail and it is GREAT! I found my shoes, just need to order them. Waiting to hear back on the venue. The wedding date is officially September 25th!

Cristina and I saw 17 Again last night for free and it was HILARIOUS! I would have definitely paid to have seen that. I can't wait to see Wolverine with my babe.

Also, Jess-amazing-Maid-Of-Honor and I had lunch the other day and there was an "S" on my tomato! *And yes, that is what I look like without make up*

My dress is on its way!

*Sigh of relief*

Things are going better. I found my dress and ordered it. It shipped today.

I found a dress that I like. Now it is up to Josh to approve it.

I am going on a tour of a potential venue on Saturday.

Photographer, check. DJ, check.

Feeling relieved.

Thank you God.

My maid of honor is AWESOME. Thanks Jess!

My groom is super loving and patient. I am so blessed.

Praise the Lord.

Stress relief.

*Sigh*

It has been a long week but finally I am going to relax.


I saw two movies this week.

I saw Sunshine Cleaning with my friend Sean Rogers. It was good but definitely not AS good as Little Miss Sunshine. I really like Emily Blunt. She's a fun actress. I liked her in The Devil Wears Prada and she was interesting in this. VERY different roles and very different accents. I'd give it 3 1/2 stars, maybe 4. The only complaint I had (and Sean agreed) was that there were subplots that were never resolved.

Adventureland was a huge disappointment. Cristina, Andrea, her boyfriend Chris and I went to the midnight viewing at Citywalk on Thursday. Man o' man. It was bad. I should have known it would be because Kristen Stewart is in it. Her facial expressions are so inappropriate to the emotion she is supposed to be going through. She constantly blinks and studders. (Think of the hospital scene in Twilight and repeat it. That's all she can do.) Ugh. The storyline was uneventful and uninteresting. It gets 1 1/2 stars and that extra half is just because I like Ryan Reynolds. He made a bad choice with this one though.
Toward the end of the movie the sound went out and it started fast forwarding and so we were given free movie vouchers so atleast I didn't really lose any money on it. Silver linings. :)

Jess and I visited my dress tonight. Bah.

I miss my fiance a lot. May isn't coming fast enough but I am sure September will be here in a second and then I will be MARRIED to Mr. Joshua. :) Ok I am sleepy, on allergy medicine and semi-delirious.

Later.

My dear friend Kate has an awesome new Etsy store!

Kate has a new Etsy store with adorable vintage clothing. Check it out and help support her!

www.kateking.etsy.com

Real thoughts that really hurt.

Thought one: while looking in the mirror, "God Shelby, you're fat."
Thought two: facial expression changing from total disgust to a softer form and I add, "compared to unrealistic images that have been burned into your psyche."
Thought three: "I should just stop eating."
Thought four: "People are dying everywhere because they haven't been blessed with food. I am such a horribly ungrateful person. Of course I can't stop eating."
Thought five: "Maybe this isn't me that is causing these thoughts. Maybe I should just stop making an idol out of my body. Maybe Satan is whispering these horrific words to me."

But even with this knowledge I still think these thoughts. In the past I have obsessed to the point of counting every calorie (no more than 900 a day) but that left me miserable and sick and well... obsessed. When you start to focus on things like that, to that degree, you lose sight of what you really care about. You become a shell of your former person. It's an addiction.

So, I have to tell the evil voice to shut up and listen to the True voice that screams, "NO!" when I tell myself I am ugly or fat or stupid. Because that isn't who God made me to be. I think I am only hurting myself but, in reality, I am sinning against Him when I insult His creation in that way.

**Random thoughts because my wedding dress is made by a designer who only goes up to "10" but in reality her "10" is a 4 or a 6. Stupid.**

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Re-post from my friend Brit:

"I asked for strength-
and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom-
and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity-
and God gave me brain & brawn to work.
I asked for courage-
and God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for love-
and God gave me opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted-
I received everything I needed.

My prayer has been answered."

-Michael
(Indian Medical Student killed June 1999 because of his father's evangelistic activities)

My heart is heavy today.

Not only has Afghanistan legalized the rape of women and reinforced the law that restricts them to stay in their home unless accompanied by a male family member (read about it here) but two women working for Current TV have been detained in North Korea and are facing trial. I don't know why my heart is so especially heavy for them but it is just so scary. I guess being an woman helps me to empathize with them. Please be praying for their release and that a peaceful outcome can be found in all of this.

"Two US journalists detained in North Korea are to face trial on charges of illegal entry and "hostile acts", a state-run news agency has reported.

Euna Lee, a Korean-American, and Laura Ling, a Chinese-American, were seized along the Chinese border on March 17.

"The illegal entry of US reporters into the DPRK [Democratic People's Republic of Korea] and their suspected hostile acts have been confirmed by evidence and their statements," the Korean Central News Agency (KCNA) said on Tuesday."

(Read more about it here and here.)

I'm really happy

I just wanted to post and say that I AM REALLY HAPPY!

Also, thank you Sheriff's department for changing my tire last night. It blew out on I4 and the cop cop stick his hand inside of it! Whoa!

Work time!

I need to post more. Sorry.

Also, my future husband is a TOTAL freakin' babe! I am so excited!